So last night Spencer spent the night with his Aunt Ashley. At first I was all over the idea, but as the night went on I started to miss him more and more. Let me tell you how quiet it was around here last night. We wanted to go and get him. I just can not believe how different our lives would be if he was not here. Even with just Bella, it was super quiet. The words that come to mind are mind dulling boredom. I guess I crave the craziness of my life. I am fine if he is gone during the day, however the night time is different. I wonder if it is my memories of being a child and being left with a babysitter without wanting to. I hated not being at home with mom and dad. I really don't think that they even felt guilty about leaving me. I always feel guilty when I leave Spencer, not because I am leaving him, but because I feel I am taking advantage of the person I am leaving him with. They always left me with family, and I loved to be there, but when the night time came I really wanted to go home and be with them again. Spencer is just so open and loves to be with all sorts of different people, that I am sure that doesn't even phase him in the least. He definitely has his dads personality. I still can not stand to spend the night at someone house with out getting home sick. And do not ask me to go anywhere without my babies, not going to happen.