Bella has a poop problem. She will go for days with out pooping. It does not seem to bother her, however the stinky farts bother us!! It had been 7-10 days with out a poop. We finally gave her apple juice today (per a nurses advice) to get things moving down there. Let me tell you how much they got moving. It was crazy quick too, it only took 1 hour before she had loaded her pants. I have never been so happy to change a poopy diaper. I was going to make an appointment with her doctor tomorrow, so this saved us some pain. I can only wonder what they would have had me do to her to get the poop flowing. It was soooo much poop, it filled 2 diapers, and got all over the pad she was on too. John cant handle poop, so I get that end, and when the kids throw up, he gets that end. I don't do puke! I am sure she feels much better too, she ate dinner after and went to bed a happy pooper. I am happy that I know about the apple juice trick. Now that the thrush is clearing up on both of us, we can return to 100% breast feeding, and that should help to keep her pooping normal.

Did I mention that she turned 2 months old on Monday (or 9 weeks on Tuesday if you count weeks)? She is growing too quick. It is really bothering me. I worked so hard to get pregnant, and my pregnancy flew by. Now my baby girl is growing bigger every day. It is so sad to see the outfit I brought her home from the hospital in, it is way small. Oh well, it is not like I did not know this would happen. I should get over it. I will tell you this, I love every day I spend with my two babies. I hope all the pictures and the journal I am keeping for Bella, will help me to remember all that is flying by.

So last night Spencer spent the night with his Aunt Ashley. At first I was all over the idea, but as the night went on I started to miss him more and more. Let me tell you how quiet it was around here last night. We wanted to go and get him. I just can not believe how different our lives would be if he was not here. Even with just Bella, it was super quiet. The words that come to mind are mind dulling boredom. I guess I crave the craziness of my life. I am fine if he is gone during the day, however the night time is different. I wonder if it is my memories of being a child and being left with a babysitter without wanting to. I hated not being at home with mom and dad. I really don't think that they even felt guilty about leaving me. I always feel guilty when I leave Spencer, not because I am leaving him, but because I feel I am taking advantage of the person I am leaving him with. They always left me with family, and I loved to be there, but when the night time came I really wanted to go home and be with them again. Spencer is just so open and loves to be with all sorts of different people, that I am sure that doesn't even phase him in the least. He definitely has his dads personality. I still can not stand to spend the night at someone house with out getting home sick. And do not ask me to go anywhere without my babies, not going to happen.

So my Bompa called me today for the 3rd time in my entire life. He had recently sent Bella an outfit, and being that he has only called me 3 times, I don't need to express my surprise that he sent us a gift. I had made it my number one priority to sent him a thank you card when I received the cute outfit. He must have just gotten the card today, because it was the reason for his call. He proceeded to tell me that I had left his new wives name off the card and that I had really hurt her feelings. This is a woman that I have really never had a conversation with in the last 15 years of my life. Not that I did not give her the chance, she just does not talk. I am sure she could not point me out in a line up, or for that fact even knows my name. Keep this in mind, I did not put his name (or hers) on the card, I had however addressed it to "Bompa". I guess that was my mistake. Did I mention that when he called, he introduced himself as "Larry" (he included his last name too, but I don't feel it necessary to say it on this blog). No, not "hi, this is Bompa", it was "Hi, this is Larry". I guess that is where I rank in his life. It really makes me sad. It is not that growing up we did not have a relationship, my family lived with him when I was a little girl. We were always at his house for family events, he was very much a part of my life. Now he is a stranger, and I am just a person to whom he says "this is Larry".

Well, they all say that today is a day for love. I do not agree. It is a day for fights. Just picture it, your husband comes home with out anything, because you had talked about not doing anything for Valentines day. He did not get the hint. Now you have to go around all day pissed off because you did not get some stupid stuffed animal that sings "I got you babe". There is way too much pressure on this stupid holiday. I myself say every year that we don't need to do anything, but here I was tonight thinking how upset I was when I did not get anything. When he finally came in with roses and a card, I felt stupid. I had fallen for the holiday curse, if you don't get a gift that means your not loved. Just stupid. Did I mention that I did not get him anything!!! OOOPS

Today Bella is 8 weeks old. The time is just flying by, and it is making me sad. Only a few more weeks and I will be going back to work. I don't mind going back, it will only be for a few hours a day, but I am nervous. Sundays will be the hardest part of my week, because it is the only day that I will be working a full 8 hour shift. Oh well, we all have to do it some time.

We had to take Bella to the doctor yesterday, she has thrush (a mouth infection). Her current weight is 11 pounds and 1.5 ounces. She has grown 3 1/2 pounds in 8 weeks. She is definitely not going hungry. I had to get her some new pants again, because she keeps growing out of them. Spencer also needs some new pants, that kid is growing like a weed too. Speaking of Spencer, I called around today to find out what school he will be attending in the fall. It is really hitting home on how old he is getting. Oh well. Now I am going to have to deal with the letting him get on the bus thing. You know I will be one of those moms who follows the bus all the way to school. I don't know how I am going to let him out of my sight, it is going to hurt so bad. I keep hearing how the time apart will be good for the both of us, and to tell you the truth, I really think it will only be good for him. It is a good thing Bella came into my life when she did, or I would be very very very sad when he went to school. Just think, I will have to do this giving my kids up thing at least one more time. Talk about hard.